Life itself

How can people imagine that we are conscious beings in a universe that is material, static and unconscious? How could matter give birth to so much life? Is not the universe itself a great ‘being’, not as a noun, but a verb? Being is constantly happening, it is an organic, living phenomenon. You are that happening. Life itself.

We feel we are victimized when life hits us with tragedy, with hardships, with heart-breaks. But, oh, every act is designed especially to wake you up from the dream that you are an individual living a life into the ultimate truth that you are Life in a human body. As Alan Watts said it “You are the universe experiencing itself”.

Tell me you always knew. You always felt you were more than just a body, you always felt the whole cosmos was behind you. Because it is.


forbidden sphere

that forbidden sphere
no human gaze can peer 
but only speculate
about our birthplace,
lingering silence opened
a window into space
when I came to see
that never was I not,
and never will I not be.

Our origins are shrouded in mystery. Only deep silence allows the mind to penetrate behind the movement and the noise of the world. Here, we may get a glimpse of our infinite existence.


Love is gravity?

I felt this, one day in August of 2017, while walking outside, I had a spontaneous insight that the whole universe is held together by a love-like ‘intent’. How else could everything move in such cyclical precision? The planetary motions, the seasons, women’s period (just joking!)

In physics, the fundamental forces generally have their dualistic poles: electricity has positive and negative charge; magnetism has a north pole and a south pole.  This leads to attractive and repulsive phenomena.  
But gravity is unusual in this respect- there is no negative repulsive gravity. It only works on attraction- bringing things together.  This is similar to love. Love brings people together.
Like the astronomical forces that created the planets from a disk of dust and debris, love brings together the individual elements that can, together, lead to something gloriously bigger.  

Gravity is at the core of a harmonious universe. It is not dumb randomness. It is awesomely intelligent. It is fully aware of itself.


the colors of your soul

what are the colors of your soul?
have you glimpsed that which makes you whole?
why worship trinkets you gathered
along the road.
how will they help you
when your body turns cold?

The claws of materialism bind many of us. We gather things hoping to bring meaning to our lives. Is our spirit measured by the things the we own?


momentary flutter

each life, a momentary flutter
on this eternal journey-
our flight to infinity.

Words are limited and cannot possibly transmit the whole experience; we could read all the books on love, and we will still have no idea what love means until we experience it.

This is also true with words like infinity, enlightenment, immortality, eternity. The awakened being has direct experience and knowing of these states, whereas for us, ordinary people, they remain largely mental concepts. So the ultimate goal is not belief, it is direct knowing which removes all possible doubt. We all have the potential for this direct knowing.

This is the major difference between eastern spiritualities and mainstream western religions-one gives the tools for direct experience and the other encourages mental conceptualization and belief.


butterfly wings

the butterfly doesn’t question
the purpose of its wings
and so creates its flight.

The human mind always searches for a purpose or meaning in life. But that is only the ego needing something to keep it alive. Making us feel somehow special, that there is a difference to be made. Purpose is also very relative. For the man who lost use of his legs, his purpose can be to overcome this handicap. For the man who is whole and able, he has the opportunity to define his own purpose in life.

Life is flexible, it is not fixed. It does not come with a purpose attached. Western esoteric schools (Rudolf Steiner, the Theosophists, the Rosicrucian, the Hermetics) say that humanity is in constant evolution, and we are evolving towards an improved human being. Many eastern traditions aim for liberation. Zen buddhism keeps away from any speculation, and takes a neutral stance. “The meaning of life is just to be alive. It is so plain and so obvious and so simple. And yet, everybody rushes around in a great panic as if it were necessary to achieve something beyond themselves” said Alan Watts.

Whatever view we take, it is only in precious moments of doing nothing, of quiet mind, of undisturbed attention that pure being arises. Those are the most delicious moments, when we drop all expectations and thoughts about ‘meaning’. Then we create an opening for our soul to make itself known.


That imaginary ‘me’

Nobody likes to be told “there is no ‘you’. The ego revolts right away. “What do you mean there is no me? Here I am reading this, and I’ve done this and that, and suffered through this, and have accomplished all that”.

Such are the layers we have created around an imaginary ‘me’ and spend our lives protecting it. And it continues to create conflicts and bring suffering, because the universe is made to wake you up from the delusion of ‘me’. Look at how life happens by itself, universes are born, trees grow, events occur, hearts beat, do they need a ‘me’ for these to happen? No. Life happens no matter what we think.

When a guru takes on a student, he has to break through all these layers, completely break down the imaginary walls we have build around our true self. The guru breaks all ideas until the space where life occurs remains empty and pristine. Where awareness can shine unencumbered. No, awareness cannot shine when ‘me’ is there.

Letting go of ‘me’ is the scariest thing for a spiritual seeker. We have carried it around for many lives, and the mind is comfortable with it. What if I disappear? If I evaporate in thin space? What will remain?

Indeed, what if ‘you’ become everything?